||[Aug. 22nd, 2003|10:25 am]
Must I Hide
Alright.. So I haven't posted in a while...
So I guess here's whats going on in El Mundo De Christina.
So I get back to work and everything's all weird.. Everyone was putting in their term notices, I had new co-leads and a few other things. Basically.. everyone's either gone.. or leaving. This job was a good experience for me... I guess.. but its really time for me to go. I'm wasting my time and energy there... it's sad but true. I value the friendships I've made there but thats really all I can say I will be taking away from the place. I applied to Border's Books.. and we'll see how things go... Obviously.. this is just another part time job.. but I think I might enjoy it more than I did Magic for a few reasons... 1. I love books.. 2. It's my favorite store 3. It's closer to home (kinda) 5. It's not Magic 6. It's not Magic. 7,8,9 etc. It's not magic. I'll be going to school so I can't have anything more than these little retail part time things anyway.. so . yeah.
On a lighter note.
I have had the opportunity to get some serious over time this week. They're basically desperate for people and all of the leads are authorized to get over time for six days this week. I have the closing shift.. and I've come in two days already this week to open/close. I should actually be there now but I really don't want to.. and since it's not my scheduled shift they can't make me. right right. anyway.. my next check shall be pretty hefty... I'm guessing it'll be over three... maybe even four hundred dollars.. wow.. go me .. and I have to pick up last week's check today.. which... shouldn't be too bad either because I worked six days. .. hmmmm Yes.
And of course.. I have to mention.. how much I love the G.R. folk. Man.. they make my night. I now have a THEME song... haha Bakari starts beat-boxing.. or whatever it is.. and I stroll in.. ... hehe "bowchickaBOWWWW/bumpwiththechumpbumpwiththechump/bowchickaBOWWWWWWW CHRISTINAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" man.. it's soo great... especially.. I really love that guy.. he's sooo much fun.. . I would totally love it if he went to Australia with me next year. Yes.
alright.. I'm done with work for now .. Let's move on
Well I can't really say much except I've signed up for classes
and Economics 1 (online)
Yeah.. I'm actually excited about school
I have to stop by the college before I head on over to work so I can see how I would go about getting honors credit for all of those classes. I wouldn't mind doing the extra work. or community service or whatever .. as long as I got extra credit for it.
And that's about it for this section..
It's totally up and down right now. when my parents first got back Cancun they were ultra pissed off at me... but now they're okay. I so want to make them proud but I don't even know what to do with myself. They want me to choose my career right this second.. and I can't.. I just really don't know what I want to do... I swear.. I've NEVER known what I wanted to do or be .. ever... when I think about my future... I don't see anything and I don't know what to say.. I just don't... I guess I have to search myself.. my soul.. ugh
and since I've been working so much.. I haven't seen anyone... I haven't seen my dad since Monday... and its Friday. He's gone when I get up and he's sleeping when I get home. Oh.. and that's another thing... While I was in Europe... I realized how much I really missed my Dad... I mean I missed my mom.. and brother and grandma.. but My Dad. ugh... I would just LOVE to travel with him... I really would. He would have enjoyed EVERYTHING we saw.. and ugh... He told me he'd take me to Brazil... and I know... if we both set our minds to it.. we'll set time to go.. it may not be this year.. it may not be next year... but hey. Like, On saturday.. he wanted me to go with him to the mall.. and we went.. and I had fun just hanging out with my dad and going to the mall.. He makes me laugh .. he laughs at me when I'm being silly.. ... he LISTENS to me... really listens... and he knows I understand him... god... I'm starting to cry .. because .. I really miss him when I don't see him.. Hmm.. next week.. I'm going to make it a point to do something with him...he's such a great guy and he's always taken for granted. there were points in my life when I really just didn't want anything to do with him... but now that I'm growing up...and I'm spending less and less time with him... I'm realizing how important he is to me... I think my brother has the same relationship with my mom... I was never really close to her.. she closes her mind, eyes, and ears to me sometimes.. and.. its hard to get through. ... ugh.
anyway.. next section.
Since I'v been back I haven't really hung out with anyone...
While My parents were gone I spent a day with Mark, Tran, Rachel Nimoy and Ilene.. and the following day... or was it that night? eh.. I spent with Erwin, Susan, Jared, Golan, Jessica, Caitlin Wing, and a few others. We went out to dinner.. and .. I think that was the last time I will see a few of those for a while... if not.. forever.. .. yeah...
and then last monday I hung out with Jessica and Erwin.. and gasp.. I smoked.. wow... sure.
and what else... I hung out with Nicole, Kris, Carlos, Kristy and... myself of course.. the other night.. we went out to denny's after work.. Twas quite amusing.. I enjoy their company greatly. but other than that.. I haven't been hanging out with the school friends at all. .. I've been working a lot and that's pretty much it... i haven't even given people their gifts from my trip yet...
I really want to hang out with Jessica and Erwin again.. because I LOVE THEM. seriously.. Jessica makes me laugh sooo hard.. and she's sooo cute.. and... yeah. and Erwin is just the greatest.
I miss Lisa a lot too.
I swear.. before school starts.. we're going to spend a day together.. I don't care what we do or don't do... I seriously don't
I just want to hang out with her.
so lisa.. if you read this..
I heart you/Let's hang out :)
So .. Wow...
this was a long entry.